Wednesday, December 9, 2015



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"More Than 'I' Can Handle" poignantly tells the inspiring story of the Mestas family, Eileen and Jerry, and their three biological and five adopted children. Living an adoption journey filled with God's miracles and His mighty power, Eileen and her family have stepped out in faith, trusting God through the impossible. A public speaker, homeschool mom, and passionate Adoption and Orphan Care advocate, Eileen writes with an honest and conversational tone. You will laugh and cry as this amazing family follows the whispers of the Lord, faithfully obeying in joy and sorrow, and giving Him the glory. Filled with anecdotes and Scripture, this book assures us that when life seems more than we can handle on our own, our heavenly Father arms us with strength in the Holy Spirit to accomplish His will. The author speaks truth straight from the Word of God, and challenges the world to accept the command found in James 1:27. Eileen Mestas is blessed with her precious family and friends, and prays her story will awaken all who read it to the orphan crisis and the call of the Lord upon their lives.


I am still in awe that Jerry & I are together for 36 years!! What a journey it has been and continues to be. The Lord has taken us places we never dreamed of and blessed us beyond our wildest imagination. We are a testimony to how the Lord does call the equipped, but HE equips those HE calls!  He has given us MORE THAN WE CAN HANDLE!...... but has always been faithful to carry us through! ONLY GOD can get the GLORY FOR HIS STORY IN THE MESSED UP MESTAS HOUSE!

Saturday, August 2, 2014


I bought a ring for Jerry about 25 years ago that he never wears. (Gold with diamond initials) With our financial crisis resulting from being out of work for the past year, I have been selling some jewelry. Yesterday I went to get this ring and it was gone! I knew I had put it there and I couldn't imagine where it was.

So, I PRAYED! I asked the Lord to please reveal to me where the ring was because I honestly had no idea where it could be. There I was, ALONE,  putting on my make-up this morning just talking to the Lord in my head. I NEVER SAID A WORD OUT LOUD OR TO ANYONE! ONLY JESUS!!

Then all of a sudden Keziah walked into the room and said;" MAMA, I JUST HEARD A VOICE TELL ME TO BRING THIS TO YOU!!!!!" I turned around and there she was holding Jerry's ring in her hand!!! I literally gasped and asked her where she got it and why she just brought it to me. She repeated; "MAMA I HEARD A VOICE TELL ME TO GO GET IT FROM KEREN'S BOX AND BRING IT TO YOU!!"

I was in shock and literally got goose bumps all over. She told me Keren had taken it a long time ago and had it hidden in one of her little treasure boxes. I looked up to the heavens and thanked the Lord for revealing the ring so quickly and for the HOLY SPIRIT using Keziah to do it. We immediately went downstairs and called a meeting with all the littles. They all gathered in the living room wide eyed and wondering what was going on.

First Lesson: After explaining the details of my morning to them, I asked:  "Do You SEE GOD?" This is a perfect example of how the HOLY SPIRIT WORKS! HE heard me and then HE SPOKE to Keziah and she LISTENED and OBEYED what HE TOLD HER TO DO! Way to go remember HIS VOICE and ALWAYS LISTEN TO HIM! This is REAL AND THIS IS HIM! You all need to be listening for the Lord to speak to you!!!!! Don't ever let anyone look down on you because you are young! God has work for you and HE wants you to know HIM personally.

Second lesson: KEREN...THE LORD KNEW YOU TOOK THAT RING and HE REVEALED IT! No one but GOD knew you did it.DO YOU SEE GOD IS WATCHING YOU!  HE hates lies and stealing! He revealed it without anyone asking you about it!  I JUST ASKED HIM FOR IT! He knew exactly where it was and told your sister to get it and bring it to me!! HE ANSWERS PRAYERS!! HE always reveals the truth to your MAMA and PAPA! YOU NEVER WILL GET AWAY WITH ANY SIN IN YOUR LIFE!

She immediately burst into tears, confessed that she took it around Christmas time and had it hidden in a can that is on her dresser.  She apologized and asked for forgiveness. I was immediately surprised again, because just this week I was cleaning their room and I almost threw that can in the trash. It had string and what looked like trash in it. But something prompted me to just put it back because I knew she really liked it. It is an old can that cookies came in.

We all sat in awe as the LORD REVEALED HIMSELF SO CLEARLY to us as we began our day today! I hugged, cuddled and kissed Keren, told her she is forgiven and we went about our busy day with JOY!  WE started our day with feeling the presence of the Lord with us and are so grateful that HE IS so caring and into the details of our lives! Oh HOW HE LOVES US!
DO YOU SEE GOD? DO YOU HEAR THE HOLY SPIRIT TALK TO YOU? DO YOU LISTEN AND OBEY? Be intentional to SEE, HEAR and OBEY HIM and experience the JOY HE BRINGS! I pray you are blessed today as well!

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Update..tHIS Story Continues

The beautiful story the Lord has orchestrated for  Ellie & Jonathan Micke is in full bloom. After a successful courtship season, they are very much in love and ready to begin their life together as husband and wife. Their June wedding will be in a beautiful country barn setting with square dancing and worship service to the Lord. We all couldn't be happier with how this relationship has blossomed since it all began in December 2012. We are now in full wedding planning mode around here.

My son Jonathan left for basic training to become and Airborne Ranger in Fort Benning, GA on April 2, 2012 and is doing very well. He has been going through some extensive training and on his next adventure. In his first letter to us my favorite part was this:

 "In 40 minutes Drill Sergeant is coming back to our bay for inspection. All beds have to be PERFECT. All PT uniforms have to MATCH. Bathrooms, showers, floors, laundry room all have to be SPOTLESS. NO PROBLEM FOR ME!! but for some....I think it is the first time some of these guys have ever made their bed or wiped up their toothpaste off the sink. It's STUPID! Everything is an argument. Hah. Jeremiah, James and Josiah are more mature and know more about respect and common sense than probably 50% of them. I only chewed out 15 people today!:)" Oh this Mama's heart is so full of joy right now. All those times I spent drilling my boy on the high standards of cleanliness, making sure he made his bed every single day, and keeping the standards high have paid off! If the secular military has such high standards how much more should we as God's Holy People set the bar for our children. "Whether you eat, or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God!" AMEN! My boy will be dealing with a lot of stress and hard things but in this...he will SHINE FOR JESUS! So much for being the drill sgt. clean freak...this is the fruit of that labor :)! We do not have an address for him because he is shipping out tomorrow to a unit called the "MEAT GRINDER", considered the hardest/best infantry unity there. He asked specifically for "DAILY PRAYER for good health, patience, endurance and to be aware of who and what I am representing!" Thank you for your love an support everyone!feeling great.

As believers, we must actively, intentionally choose to yield to the Spirit instead of yielding to the flesh. Learning to trust that in HIS Omnipotent Wisdom, Goodness, and Sovereignty God has permitted whatever I am disappointed about is HIS Appointment..His sovereign appointment for me. Trusting that because God is WHO He is, I m able to trust that this, too, is a part of my ultimate completion in Christ. All that God allows or orders to touch my life is the kindest, wisest, best and yes, necessary, "ingredient" in bringing me to perfection. God's promise is to cause all things to work for the ultimate good of forming Christ in me. His Word is true, His way is perfect! 
Well, God has been telling me for some time now that I need to make a career change. Those of you who have taken that leap of faith know how scary that can be. But I was like Jonah running away from God, trying to ignore Him, and until I finally relented and said, "OK, God, but not just yet" ....well God has done this to me before, where He says, "You aren't listening, so now I am going to have to do something to get your attention." Two days ago, He did just that. He took the matter out of my hands. There have been events in my life that I can look back on and say, "That was the best thing that ever happened to me." Well, this one ranks right up there. Losing a job can be traumatic, and give cause to grieve for some. But being set free from bondage is a cause for celebration. This is a new day. A new chapter is unfolding in our never-a-dull-moment life. I am so excited to see what the Lord has in store for me and my family! Rejoice with us. God is so Good!

Please join us in prayer for new employment!

Jerry Mestas


My precious Ellie Marie is getting married in 5 DAYS!!! It is such a bitter sweet season for all of us here at the Jerry Mestas house. How do you let go of the most precious gift from the Lord, your sweet baby girl and big sister,  who has been a joy, pleasure, and essential part of daily life and your family? How do you wake up every morning for 19 years knowing she will be your sunshine...your reason for living all day...and great support and helper. Now she will be gone; living in her own house and soon moving far away with her wonderful gift/husband from the Lord, Jonathan Micke??? It's all :MORE THAN "I" CAN HANDLE!! This is the worst part of parenting...I hate my babies leaving me!!!! I just hate it!!!! I love my Melissa Pearce and my Jonathan Mestas (who left for the Army in March) and my Ellie Marie with all of my heart!!! I love being their Mama, I love having them in my kitchen and in my house every single day...every single day...every single day! They have been my life....and now...they are all grown up and moving away...flying the nest.

Melissa and her husband just became owner/operators of a Chic-fila store in GA. They will be setting up permanent residence and taking my three beautiful grand babies away from us. No more living in the same town and being together for Sunday meals, birthdays, holidays, and just every day life together.

Jonathan turns 23 years old this Thursday, June 6th and he is in boot camp in the ARMY! He is gone for at least four years and only the Lord knows the plans He has for him now. He will not be home for his traditional birthday dinner, chicken cutlets, mashed potatoes and corn and yummy birthday cake. He is no longer going to be walking through the door and heading to the pantry and frig to see what's good to eat.

And Ellie will be going with her husband Jonathan who has been awarded and Officer/Pilot contract in the Air Force after they get married. She will be in Texas for at least nine months and never again sleeping in her room and being here with us to do every day life!

All of this has just happened within the last few months and I am just drowning in sadness right now!

I am sooooo proud of each one of them, I really like and love them and the wonderful people they have become. They love the Lord Jesus and serve him faithfully. I am so grateful for their wonderful spouses and the things the Lord is doing in their lives. But, I am just very, very, very, sad,  and I am mourning the loss of them being here with me. I know this is normal, and it is all for their good, but it is hard!  REALLY HARD!!!

Today as  I read the Bible, I was reminded of how Mary endured so much joy and hardship as the mother of Jesus. She was given the miracle and privilege of birthing and raising the son of God, the Savior of the world! What an honor and responsibility.

A crisis of belief stared Mary in the face when Gabriel, God's angel announced to her  "You are about to bear a son." How could that be? Mary was not married and she was a virgin. That was just what God said would happen as he spoke through Isaiah long ago. (Isaiah 7:14) This is God's way. He takes prophecy and shows how he is working to make it happen in a person's life. The angel's message troubled Mary. Too young..not ready..unable to understand what God was doing. The angel had the answer. TRUST GOD! HE LOVES YOU! He is giving you a unique invitation to be the mother of his unique Son. God in the Person of the Holy Spirit would bring this to pass. Mary had to be available as God's obedient servant. She had to believe God's Word: With GOD NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! (Luke 1:37)

The experiences surrounding Jesus' birth proved to be only the first adjustments. Her entire life became a process of adjusting to new experiences with God. Watching Jesus realize who he was involved Mary's understanding of his loyalty to the Father over her as family. Being faithful to him and his mission meant leaving the security of home to wander the roads of Galilee with him.

Thus Mary showed her faith and loyalty as she endured hardships with her Son--even the hardship of the cross.  (Experiencing God)
Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother, his mother's sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene.  When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to his mother, "Dear woman, here is your son," and to the disciple, "Here is your mother." From that time on, this disciple took her into his home.
Later, knowing that all was now completed, and so that the Scripture would be fulfilled, Jesus said, "I am thirsty." A jar of wine vinegar was there, so they soaked a sponge in it , put the sponge on a stalk of the hyssop plant, and lifted it to Jesus' lips. When he received the drink, Jesus said, "IT IS FINISHED." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. "

The last act Jesus performed right before he died, was an "ADOPTION"  between his mother Mary and John, the disciple whom he loved! He did not want her to be alone and made sure she was going to be well loved and taken care of.  There in LOVE, Jesus rewarded her, giving her a new son to care for as well.

As I reflect on this reading today, I am so grateful and honored the Lord saw fit to bless me with the gift of motherhood. He gave me three beautiful children in my youth, and now, in LOVE, he has blessed me with five more precious children through "ADOPTION" to care for and love and train up to know him in my old age. What a gift! How wonderful of HIM to know my heart so well and to care so much for all of us that HE made us a family! Just as He knew it was time for Him to die, he performed this adoption. Just as He knew it was time for our birth parents to die and/or their inability to parent our precious little ones, HE saw fit to place them into our hearts and lives and to take them into our home forever...just as John took Mary and Mary took John.

How gracious is my LORD to show this to me today! I love the way HE is faithful to speak to me in my pain and to bring comfort. He shows me how intentional He is in every detail of my life. What a loving, kind and compassion FATHER HE IS! What a beautiful picture of LOVE the Father lavishes on HIS children! Thank you Lord for this blessing.

As I grieve the loss of my older children leaving our home and pursuing the plans HE has for them, I look forward to the work, memories and yes even hardships I still have to enjoy with my precious little ones whom I dearly love.  I pray daily for their spouses He has waiting for them and look forward to seeing the plans HE has for each of them as well.  I pray I will steward this life well, like Mary, enduring the joys and hardships as I walk by faith and seek to fulfill the plans and purpose HE has for me to glorify Him alone!

There is joy in the mourning......



Wednesday, February 27, 2013



Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen Ephesians 3:20-21

I am just an ordinary middle-aged woman who loves the Lord Jesus Christ and is striving to live my life for His purpose and His glory.  One day I realized how perfectly my name fits me – Eileen “I lean on the Lord cuz I’m a messed up” Mestas! I am Jerry’s wife and mama to eight beautiful and amazing children – Melissa, Jonathan, Ellie, James, Jeremiah, Josiah, Keren, and Keziah.  I am also grandma to Vaden, Cana, and Callum, and mother-in-law to Randy. I am a sister, daughter, and friend.   But most importantly, I am a sinner saved by grace and a child of the King.

This year, Jerry and I celebrated thirty-three years of marriage, and it has been one wild ride!  Scattered among seasons of incredible blessings have been extremely difficult times, including struggles with infertility, alcohol abuse, infidelity, financial crisis, anger, resentment, and unforgiveness.  At the beginning of our marriage, we were guided by our sinful flesh and not by God’s blueprint, and the consequence of our selfishness was that in 1988, after nine years together, we were separated and headed for divorce.  Praise God that He had other plans for us!  By the Lord’s mercy and divine intervention, we were able to reconcile and turn our lives over to Him.  We learned a lot through that time about trusting God and leaning on Him in times of trouble.  

After dedicating our lives to Jesus Christ and renewing our commitment to one another, Jerry and I were blessed with three children and were living a comfortable, middle class life in Southern California. In 1994, Jerry retired from the Los Angeles Police Department after twenty years of service, and we decided to make a fresh start and move our family to North Carolina.  Jerry took a job as an insurance investigator and we settled down to the business of raising children, serving in the church, and enjoying the laid-back charm of small-town Southern living. Life was good!  Little did we know that the Lord was about to turn our lives upside down and inside out!   First, in 1995 He called us to homeschool our children.  I hadn’t planned on this.  Me?  Homeschool?  What about socialization? How will they get into college? I had all the typical worries and concerns about my qualifications for this new venture, but the Lord was whispering, “Trust Me.” 

Then, in 2003 God convicted us that we were to trust Him for the size of our family and begin a journey to adoption.  Again, doubts filled my mind.  Could I really love an adopted child as much as I loved my three biological children? Could we provide financially for a bigger family the way that we wanted?   The Lord spoke a little louder, “Trust Me.”    In 2004, we suddenly found ourselves unemployed.  Jerry found temporary employment here and there, but he ended up working only three of the next seven years.  We had added two new babies to the family and my aging parents had recently moved into our home as well.  Our savings account was quickly wiped out and I found myself lying wide awake in bed at night, arguing with God. “Where are you?  Why would you do this to us?  What if we lose our house?”  Over and over again, I felt the Lord’s presence and heard his reassuring voice saying, “Trust Me.”   Unbelievably, in the midst of this time, the Lord seemed to be calling us to grow our family AGAIN, this time through international adoption.  Now, this didn’t make any sense at all!  I was 48 years old and Jerry was pushing 55!  We were too old!  Besides, international adoption is very expensive, and we had NO MONEY!  We already had five children, Jerry had only just recently started a new job, and we had no savings!   What in the world?  Were we insane? I’m sure some people thought so (and probably still do!).   But once again, the Lord spoke to our hearts with these words, “Trust Me.” 

There is a saying that God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. Well, I know that isn’t true! God says he will not let us be tempted more than we can bear (1 Corinthians 10:13) but it does not say we will be able to handle everything that happens in life on our own. The Lord has definitely given me way more than I can handle – on my own.  The truth is that I would be a basket-case were it not for the One who strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)   It is the power of the Holy Spirit and His word that give me the ability to handle everything on my plate.  My loving, heavenly Father arms me with strength (2 Samuel 22:33) to accomplish His will on a minute by minute basis. His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in my weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ” (2 Corinthians 12:9)

The Bible is full of stories about people who were called to do things they couldn’t handle. Moses was called to ask mighty Pharaoh to grant freedom to all his Israelite slaves, but he begged God to find someone else because he didn’t feel equal to the task.  Joshua was called to defeat the great walled city of Jericho by marching his army in circles around it while the people standing on the walls laughed. Gideon was called to lead the Israelites against the much bigger and stronger Midianite army, and he threw out a fleece, not once but twice, to be sure that he wasn’t hearing God incorrectly. Jesus’s disciples were instructed to feed a hungry crowd of 5000 people with a measly two loaves of bread and seven fish and they tried to convince him to send the people elsewhere. But in each case, God’s plan was greater than what man could see from his limited perspective. It is when God calls us to do things that we know we cannot handle that He has the opportunity to show us his incredible love, mercy, grace, and mighty power.  And in those times, we have the opportunity to grow in faith and we fall even deeper in love with Him. For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. (Ephesians 2:10)

The Lord has given me a story to tell about the miraculous signs, wonders, and provision our family experienced when we began to listen, trust, and obey His voice, even when it didn’t make sense.  I am blessed with more than I deserve; more children, more joy, more love, more happiness, and more faith.  I pray that tHIS story will encourage you to be faithful to listen, trust, and obey whatever God is calling you to do in your life.  There is a saying – God doesn’t call the equipped, but He equips those He calls – and I do believe that!   It is only by His will that I write this book of testimony for His purpose and His glory.   I have come to understand that my life is not my own. It is not about me! It is truly more than “I” can handle which is why I have bowed my knee and surrendered my life to the Almighty God who never gives me more than HE can handle! 



Our book "MORE THAN "I" CAN HANDLE!" is shipping from our website and also on Amazon! All books purchased on our website will be autographed with a specific prayer for each recipient by name. I don't take lightly the sacrifice and time invested by each person who buys it and I am forever grateful to each of you. I have great hopes that you will be inspired, encouraged and blessed.

THIS story is written by the Lord,  I am merely the story teller. He has intentionally orchestrated every detail of every adventure with many surprising miracles along the journey. The story has become so eventful, exciting and amazing that it turned into a speaking ministry and now a book! I believe with all of my being the Lord told me to write it, HE sent the publisher to me to publish it, and now HE will intentionally market it and get it get it into the hands of those he wants to read it! It's all HIS!

As the reader, you will travel on a journey through every emotion; you will laugh, you will cry, you will question and you will gain insight on what the scriptures have taught me on how to handle many of life's experiences. I pray everyone will be encouraged and challenged to walk by faith and trust the Lord in what ever situation life may be giving you. This is not just a story about adoption, it is so much bigger than we all realized! If you have been following our blog over the years, you may still want to purchase the book because you will find a lot more details and stories that I have never shared before. 

Reviews just in:

-- AWESOME BOOK about a family I LOVE and their adoptions....and the miraculous throughout....... Definitely worth the's a cry and laugh book........ my favorite!! It's even better if you know or have seen Eileen speak...because you automatically read it in her voice with her expression..... BONUS!
.....Carolyn Twietmeyer

--I have known Eileen and Jerry for more than 20 years. Although I haven't seen her in a long time, after reading her book I felt I was living it with her. This book is so inspirational that even if you are not a religious or spiritual person, it certainly makes you think. I have always believed in God and know He is an all knowing and forgiving God and Eileen has made this book without a doubt her "miracle" testament and can only be done in Eileen's voice. This book will lift you, make you cry, and laugh. I wish her and her loving family all the wonders of the world. Please read this book.. It's amazing.... Terry Impastato

--Eileen, it's been a year since you came to the "mountain" in Arkansas and shared the testimony that God used to change our life so completely. The day that we heard you share this story was the day our hearts were opened miraculously to adoption...and we are in our mid 40's, too. I'm almost half way through your book now.....if only I hadn't needed to sleep last night I would have finished it by now! ha! But, I am enjoying it immensely and am so happy to have the copy in my hands now. I read a lot of books and this one is absolutely riveting...great job! Glory to God for what He has done. ♥♥♥ Rhonda Drain

--Have tissues on hand! Cried thru every chapter so far.....Joanne Page

--The second time in a week that I get up to your story being first on my news feed! Eileen, there are no words to tell you how excited and happy for you I am! And just to think of all the little lives who will be impacted b/c of you. May God continue to bless and guide you on this glorious journey! xoxoxox.... Darlene Lowe

I got the book last night around 7pm, and stayed up until I had finished it last night.  IT WAS AWESOME! By far, my favorite description of you and Jerry is the airport scene where the man gives an honest account of what it is to meet Eye Lean and then to love her.  As I read your book, the tears just streamed down my face through many parts. I love you for writing this book (and many other reasons!) because I truly feel that people need to SEE these divine timelines of adoptions. I want to live boldly in every matter, trusting Christ to work out the details of His call. Thank you again for this book..... Missy

If you have been following our blog over the years you may still want to purchase our book because you will find a lot more details and stories that I have never shared before.  

It will also be available by request at Barnes & Noble, CBD and most Christian Bookstores within a few weeks.  

I pray reading tHIS story will encourage you in faith to trust and obey the Lord Jesus Christ on the journey HE has for you and your family.  May you be richly blessed and thank you for taking the time out of your busy life to follow along with us. Please leave comments or reviews here on the blog and let me know what you think of the book!